I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you

I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Christmas Letter

We are not good at sending letters and so once again we have failed so we will put it on our blog.
This year has been eventful in many ways and not always in a good way. Some things have been tough, we went through a stressful time of not knowing if Treven would still have a job or not, thankfully it blew over but not without some sadness as Treven had to watch several good friends get laid off in the process. My car was hit by a large SUV but luckily as bad as the damage was I was not seriously hurt but still deal with some issues. I try not to look in my rear view mirror when I am at a stop because I have had full blown panic attacks anytime I feel a car is coming too fast. I watched the driver who hit me come at speeds greater than 50 mph as I helplessly was at a stop light behind other cars. The impact was horrible and an experience that left me shaking so bad I couldn't talk or function, Treven had to come to the scene because I couldn't function.
We have also had some great experiences that balance out the not fun ones. Treven in May completed his first full marathon in a great time of 4 hours and 15 minutes, I could not have been more proud of him as he smiled ear to ear at the finish line. A few short weeks later I completed a sprint tri-athlon that was so empowering I felt on top of the world. In October both of us along with my parents and my friend Jodi did the Moab half marathon. I think both Treven and I have started down the path of race junkies as we hope to do several more in the upcoming year.
We have been able to go and visit friends and family through the year. I think we both really enjoyed our trip to Idaho. I loved visiting my friend in Twin Falls so see her ADORABLE twin boys. Then off to Payette to see friends and go white water rafting on the salmon river.
We were able to see the phantom of the opera, Treven had never seen a broadway show and he really enjoyed it.
I was asked to teach Primary singing time and was scared to death at first. But it quickly became a calling I really liked and miss sometimes now that I am not longer doing it.


We have had a great year overall and through these experiences we have grown so much closer as a couple. As we went through one of our toughest trials when a family member of Treven's disappeared for a time and left behind a note and his possessions. During this time we learned truly of the power of prayer as we said many. I learned that sometimes prayers are not answered right away but we are not left alone. As we searched and the days rolled by it became increasingly frustrating that we were not getting any inspiration of where to look. Eventually after a week this family member returned home and it has changed his life and ours as well. As the months have past and I have often thought about this I wondered why no one felt anything of where to look or even if the person was still alive.
As I talked with a friend she gave powerful insight that I feel is the reason. She said if our prayers would have been answered right away and he would have been found then our prayers would have been answered, but what about this family member? What would it have done to him, he would not have had his experience he needed. He needed to know if he wanted to be apart of this life and of this family. For years he has been distant and in his own world. Since he has come back he is a changed man for the better. Sometimes prayers are not answered in the time or way we want but it is not without reason. If we would have found him the first day or two maybe he would not have learned what he needed to learn. He had to come back because he wanted to, and he did. Our immediate prayers to find him were not answered, but the prayers people had been saying for years asking for him to have a change of heart were answered.

During the Christmas season we wanted to say how much we love God, his son Jesus, and our church. We are grateful for the trials that have been put before us this year, we are truly stronger because of it. We are very grateful for our families and friends. How blessed we are that God was so loving that he put Treven and I together, we have had 4 years of marriage and I can there was no one that would have been better. This year has taught us that we need to leave things in God's hands and know he has a plan for us and we are not left alone to fend for ourselves. We hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas and we love you all!


Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Dear Santa

Dear Santa,

All I want for Christmas this year is to make it through an entire Jillian Michael's workout video without the urge to puke...... It's not like I'm asking for the world!!!!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Facts of Life

Recently we have had events in our lives that has really made me think about what I want in life. We are leaving Thursday so we can spend a weekend with my step-grandpa Frank, it will probably be the last time we will see him in this life as he has not been doing very well. I haven't talked about it much basically because I hate the conversations you have when you tell people someone in your family is dieing, it basically goes, "I'm sorry that sucks......." followed by a long awkward pause because really what do you say to a person in that situation? Nothing ever seems good enough. It has given me time to reflect on what this man means to me since he came into my life when I was a teenager by marrying my grandma. It is no secret I did not like him much at first, I thought he was grumpy and it was tough for me to adjust going to HIS house to see my grandma. But through the years as I have watched him and my grandma and the way that he truly accepted her family as his own I have been impressed by many things which I would like to incorporate into my own life. I think everyday I hope that something will happen I hope that the doctors will do a test and find out that somehow he has been cured and that he will be around for years to come. But that is not the case and time marches on becoming the greatest enemy. All I can do as I watch helplessly is hope that when I am old and gray I can look back on my life and be proud of who I am, what I have done, and how I have change people's lives. I have watched how much him and my grandma have accomplished in 9 1/2 years of marriage and I know that if they can serve multiple missions, travel the world, and be there for their family I have big shoes to fill.
This weekend will be hard as I know that when the weekend comes to a close I will have to say goodbye to someone who has made a difference in my life. I can only hope I can take into account the lessons I have learned from him and make a difference in people's life just as he has done in mine.
Grandpa I love you.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Moab and Stuff

Life has been crazy busy at work and at home in general and with a snow day I guess I need to stop procrastinating and get some stuff done! First, my work has decided to open up a second office so my life has gone into overdrive. So if I'm kind of non existent I'm not blowing anyone off, promise.
A few weekends ago Treven, myself, my friend Jodi, her hubs packed up their car and headed to moab so we could run the moab half marathon. I admit I was nervous but not near as nervous as I was for the tri-athlon back in June. Poor Treven was really sick but was not going to miss running after he has been training so hard. We were able to spend Saturday in Arches National Park and then met up with my parents who were also running the race.
Sunday morning came way to soon and before we knew it we were on our way up to the starting line up the scenic highway. I was nervous because before the race the farthest I had ran was 9 miles and now I had to do 13.1! But it was a fantastic day in a beautiful setting, perfect weather, and lots of jitters to keep me running! Jodi and I had a goal that we wanted to finish in under 2 hours 30 minutes, as we past mile 10 we realized we needed to pick up the speed and I don't know where the energy came from but we FLEW the last three miles, and finished under 2:30. Our final time 2:27. Treven and my dad finished in one hour 47 minutes and my mom not far behind us at 3 hours. In my professional opinion of one race :) it was a fantastic place to run and I am excited that Treven and I will be going back to moab in Dec to run their run in the sun 10k.







Along the run More scenic stuff on the run

After the race recovering



The whole gang who ran, my dad, Treven, mom, me, Jodi


My favorite pick of the girls!






The famous arch in Utah




That was not an easy rock to get up on!






Treven and I, so happy to be done!











Thursday, October 1, 2009

So excited!

So today the Colorado Rockies have secured a spot in the playoffs!!!! I love baseball, it's my favorite sport. I've played since I was 5 and have always enjoyed watching it. Two years ago we tried really hard to get tickets when they made it clear up to the world series but were unsuccessful. This year we were able to get tickets and now can't wait for the postseason to start next week!!!! GO ROCKIES!!!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Snow?

Yep you read that right. Woke up yesterday and it was COLD, but never did I think about mid morning I would look out the window and see snow coming down. And not just a few flakes it was going all out. It didn't stay long and I hope it was just a fluke but something tells me we are in for a long winter here in Denver.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Settling in

Well as some people know we moved apartments this weekend and it was not completely smooth. We walked into our new apartment and it has a lot of issues. Broken windows, stains on the carpet, residue of a spilled drink on the window seal, and worst of all, the fridge and freezer smell so rancid I make Treven open it to get anything. I went to the office and had a discussion with the apartment assistant manager and things are in the process of being taken care of. We did discover last night the culprit of the nasty fridge smell. There is a leak under the fridge by the fan and nasty things are growing. It is unfortunate that a place that bills itself as a "luxury apartment" was in such bad shape, but I guess that is just Treven and I's amazing luck we seem to have. To add to the awesome luck I took my camera to take pictures and as I was leaving I opened the door to the stairs, which bumped me and the camera went flying out of my hands, all I could say as I watched in horror while the camera hit every stair and rail for 3 floors was, "oh sh**" When I found the camera on the first floor I couldn't believe it wasn't in a million pieces, and it's pretty banged up BUT it does still work. Hopefully we can get if fixed.
Once all of our issues are taken care of this place will hopefully be a nice place to live. We are on the third floor so we have floor to ceiling windows, vaulted ceilings, a built in office area, separate tub and shower, fireplace, much bigger bedroom, and we are only 5 minutes away from my work and it's the same to Treven's work.
Moving is stressful and very tiring, but at least today everything is done and we are spending the day relaxing before another work week begins.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

When the cats away, the mice will play!

Early Thursday morning Treven took off with his brother to go to their family reunion. I opted to stay home as 10 hours of driving, 2 days of camping, and 10 hours of driving sounded like no fun to me. But I had a great couple of days of playing on my own.
Friday morning Charlie and I went for a run. Then I met my friend Jodi for lunch and deep fried oreo's (yum)! Followed by a window shopping trip at the mall. Friday night was off to the Rio for Joe's farewell party. He used to work with Treven but is now off to bigger and better things, and someone had to represent the Porters! Although, I did miss Treven a lot because it is tough to be the only sober person at a party. It felt like the college days rolling into my apartment complex at 2:30 a.m.
Of course unlike the college days I can no longer sleep until noon or later, I was wide awake by 9, my former college self would be disgusted! But no time to rest since it was off to the mall for more shopping with Joe and Paco. After a new sweater, new shoes, new shirt for Treven, a new clutch bad, and some great outfits for Joe at his new job it was off to J. Alexanders for lunch with Becky and then to a movie, followed by more shopping!
At that point I was exhausted and headed home to lay on the couch to do nothing. Followed by a call from Treven who said they were heading home at 10 o'clock at night and would be here bright and early. So much for relaxing I hadn't cleaned the house since Thursday and it was trashed!
As much fun as it was I was happy to be woken up this morning by a very sleepy Treven, even if I did have an upset stomach and I wanted to roll over and die. All in all minus feeling sick this morning I had a fun weekend!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Pictures

In March our good friend Kristy took pictures of Treven and I, here are just a couple of the many great ones!

Girls just want to have fun!
We randomly found this great place to take the pics!

Treven and I






Thanks Kristy for taking great pics!




Sunday, June 28, 2009

The Race

This morning was my danskin triathlon and I was up plenty early, like 4:10 a.m.! With nerves to spare I headed up to the Aurora resevior to meet my friend who talked me into this crazy thing. We set up our transition area got our wetsuits on and headed down to the water. We were in the last wave to go so we stood and watched for 35 minutes and then it was our turn. All I could say to my friend as we heard the countdown was, "I hate you right now" she started to laugh hysterically!
The swim was horrible I couldn't get into a rhythm the water was cold and my goggles fogged up. During the swim I had serious doubts about finishing, I was spent and I still had two more legs to go!
Jodi and I got done with our swim about the same time and started on our bike ride. Surprisingly, that was my favorite leg and it wasn't easy. Normally the distance is 12 miles but since this course has SO many hills (you were either going up or down) and some were gnarly our course was only 10 miles. I remember turning around the corner and looking up the monster hill and my jaw dropped. It was my favorite because you could get some serious speed on the way down! When I got off my bike I didn't realize but I had the worst leg cramp and I almost fell down when trying to dismount. Jodi said she threw up twice on the bike course.
Then the run, I was ahead of Jodi in the bike but with some slow jogging she caught up and we had a great run together of 3.1 miles to the end where they announce your name over the P.A. system. I'm happy that I did not have to get off and walk my bike. And I'm proud that we ran 95% of the run leg. Other than the swim I had a great time and Jodi and I have decided to do the Moab half marathon in October!!!

Right after the swim Treven waited by the beach to take a picture, I was so tired!Jodi and I during the run, it was too hard for Treven to get anywhere on the bike path so no bike pics.We are so close to the finish at this point!Me and my finishers medal!!!!Jodi and I, hot, tired, but so happy that we did the race!!!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Training

I am officially a week in a half away from the danskin triathlon and I am SO nervous!!! Anytime I think about it my stomach gets tied up in knots, I really struggle with doing new things like this. I am afraid of looking like an idiot. Yesterday I was trying to come up with ways that I could get out of doing the race, a sprained ankle??? Nope, I work for chiropractors they would want to work on it. A flat tire on the way to the race? No, my friend will be with me. So it looks like I will be going through with it, I hope I don't become a drowned rat in the middle of the lake. But I have seen dramatic improvements in my fitness level. When I started I could hardly swim a lap in the pool, that's bad considering it's like a 25 yard length and a half a mile is 36 laps. Now I can swim the entire 36 laps with little rest, I'm glad they have canoes on the lake if you need a break. My running is a lot better, before I could only run about 20 minutes max, now I am running around 45 minutes and really only the last 5 is a struggle. Last Saturday part of my training was to do 30 min swim, 30 min bike, 30 min run. It was very exhilarating when I finished the hour in a half, maybe I won't need to be carried off in an ambulance. One thing I know is, part of me wishes the race was this week so I can just get it over with!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Vaca



We got back from visiting both sides of the family. We were able to go to my little sisters high school graduation, fish with Treven's nephew, have a water fight, go to the drive in movies, visit Thanksgiving point, and we saw a LOT of family! We were happy to visit and happy to come home!


Chelsea and my grandma after her 2 1/2 hour graduation


One of my fishes I caught, Trev got 1, T.J. 0, and ME? 4!!!!

Treven and T.J. getting one of my fishes off the line, I'm a "girlie fisher" I don't touch worms or fish

Lilly hanging out at the swing





Treven getting Owen and Dax wet with the hose





Poor Owen having so much fun but so cold... His lips started to turn blue


Trying to say cheese while his teeth were chattering


Sunday, May 3, 2009

Marathon

Many many months ago Treven and my dad decided to run the Ft. Collins marathon, well today they did it. I am very proud of both of them my dad has done several but this was Treven's first! He ran it in 4 hours and 15 minutes. He was very happy when he was done!


Treven and I at the finish lineTreven, Joe, and Becky, he was really glad they came up!
My dad running on the course, it's the "hook 'em horns" for U of T

There is so much support for the runners, these guys just ride their bikes up and down the course giving encouragement and laughs




Even though Treven was done before my dad he ran down the last 100 yards with him




Car

Well we found out on Friday that there is serious damage under my car and the insurance company is going to total it. Which to me is not good news because my car is 6 years old and they are only offering $6500, you don't get much for that but I guess we'll see.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Bad Week

I thought my Monday was bad but nope today tops it. I normally love Wednesdays because I have that day off, but today I went in for a few hours. I was on my way home for lunch when the car in front of me stopped suddenly, I stopped in time but watched in the rear view mirror the huge SUV flying toward me and NOT stopping, needless to say he hit me going about 40 m.p.h. He did start to swerve so he hit more of the side on the back than full on. So Treven came down because I couldn't think I was staring at my insurance card but freaking out that I couldn't find it and I was shaking pretty bad to where I couldn't write. Luckily, I work for a chiropractor office and after getting everything squared away I went back to the office so Tyler could do an exam on me.
I hit my head and have a bump on the side of my head
I've been having back and neck spasms
My back is very sore
I have a headache
But thankfully there is nothing seriously wrong the pics are hard to see all the damage but you get the gist. I think the rest of the week I should hide in the corner and not come out. With my luck I'll be the first to get swine flu in Colorado.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Yes another post

I know lots of posts lately BUT my friend Kristy has started a side business and is putting her crafty skills to work!!! So check it out she just posted it today so there will be more to come!

http://thevintageclothespin.blogspot.com/

Monday, April 27, 2009

Monday

I hate Mondays in general, but today I think takes the cake. I woke up late and when I looked out the window expecting rain instead there's several inches of snow on the ground and more accumulating. So I'm already mad because I overslept and it's snowing, when I walk out to my car and immediately see there is a problem, my car door is partially open. I look inside to see my car trashed; my glove box and middle consul are open, there are papers everywhere, I had a game in my car and there were a million pieces thrown all over my car, and they broke my trunk opener (it was already broke but they basically ripped it off trying to get my trunk open which you can't do without a key). I take a few minutes to clean up my car and looking to see if they took anything, luckily nothing worth taking was in the car and I call Treven,turns out he forgot to lock my car when he drove it on Saturday. Ironically I was just thinking last night how grateful I am that we can afford to live in a safe area and a safe apartment complex. I guess it could have been worse as far as I can tell nothing was taken but it does shatter the safe image I had.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Baseball Game

Even though it was a cold night we had a lot of fun, we sat on the 3rd baseline and watched the Rockies lose to the LA Dodgers..... Stupid Dodgers


Manny in left field
Jimenez getting ready to pitch



Joe and Treven
Treven and me



Article

So I was looking at msn and an article caught my eye, when I clicked on it I got a suprise. The article is about a woman in Payette, my hometown. More than that it described where she lived and I knew it exacly, she lives in the trailer park of an ex-boyfriend. Sometimes when you least expect it your tiny hometown is in national news.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/30390801/?gt1=43001

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

It's over!

Well three weeks has come and gone! The first day I was on the diet I had this freak out because I felt like it was going to be forever. Well now it's over and to celebrate Treven and I went out to breakfast this morning, waffles and hashbrowns! YUM! I thought so much about having chocolate and sugar the first day I was off and now I'm not in the mood for it, go figure. All in all I lost seven pounds which I am so happy about, I started at 134.5 and I am down to 127.5, my overall goal is to get back down between 115-120. So here are my food goals;

Breakfast needs to be something other than sugary cereal. A breakfast I discovered long ago was plain Greek yogurt with some honey and berries. I need to get back to things like that.

Lunches need to be more than a pb&j. That's where using the foods I ate in my diet will be key, like stir fries and big salads with lots of veggies.

Dinners again just keeping more veggies on the plate than things like boxed pastas.

More water, less soda. And sticking with my gym routine, now it's time to get serious about the tri-athalon that's coming up the end of June.
I'm glad I did this, I feel like it's really helped to change my eating habits for the better and made me realize I don't have to go out to eat and get appetizers, and desserts. And my main incentive for keeping it off? Not doing this cleanse/diet again!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Take 2

So 2 weeks down on my 3 week extreme diet. I've had some up's and down's this past week. I think it was like day 8 when I was just about to quite I was so tired of the strict diet and it didn't seem like I could do it for two more weeks. Well I kept going, and I'm happy that I did. I have lost a total of 5.5 pounds in two weeks and I am very happy about that and I am back in the 120's!!! Everyone who has done this diet kept saying that I would start to feel awesome, I think once I was over thinking about all the foods I couldn't eat that's when the change started. The first week in a half I think I was going through a food detox and I was always thinking about what foods I would eat if I wasn't on the diet. Now that's over and it's just routine. My goal for my last week of this diet is to really decide on how I am going to incorporate my new eating habits into my normal life.

This is an example of what I eat everyday;

Breakfast: A fruit smoothie with whey protein and this other diet supplement
Snacks: grapes, apples, sugar snap peas, or oranges
Lunch: Stir fry with 1/2 cup brown rice or I might bake chicken and have veggies with it
Afternoon snack: Another fruit smoothie like at breakfast
Dinner: Baked fish with salad and veggies

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Tree Sap

Funny story....
I took Charlie, our little Italian greyhound, outside and I guess he rubbed up against some pine tree branches. We got inside and I was putting in a movie and I heard him behind me acting crazy, I thought he was playing with his toy, when I turned around it was quite the scene. He was frantically scooting his whole left side of his body across our carpet, couch, blankets, anything. He kept going getting more frantic so I grabbed him and could smell something funny but didn't see anything, then I felt it, tree sap on his coat. Putting him in the bath did nothing now he was wet and had tree sap on him. Now he was rolling over doing backflips while scooting on our carpet. I ran to target and the only thing I could find was adhesive remover. When I got back he was still being crazy so it was hard to keep him still, but amazingly enough it worked. Try explaining to a target associate that you are looking for some kind of remover to get the tree sap off of your dog that has probably torn up your apartment by now, see what kind of looks you get.

The Diet

I have been frustrated that I cannot lose weight and its for one reason, my eating is really really bad. So a week ago I started this 21 day diet. It's pretty restrictive on what you can have, no grains, dairy, processed foods, salts, etc. You can have all the fruits and veggies that you want, couple of servings of protein, lentils, rice, supplements, and lots of water. Our massage therapist at work did it back in Jan and she lost a lot of weight plus it changed her eating habits. So I decided to do it, to lose some weight but mainly to break my bad eating habits of eating out and lots of sweets. I started to splurge every time we went out. So one week down, two more to go and this is what I have discovered;

There are TOO many food commercials on T.V. ( I hate you red lobster, carls jr, and papa johns)
I don't miss sweets as much as I thought I would
What I miss more than sweets is seasonings like salt
I had to go out to eat when Trev's parents came to town, that was hard
I have learned I like things like arugula, kale, and bok choy
I don't like lentils
I've had several dreams about food, one I went to take a big bite out of chocolate cake and it was all plastic inside. The second I was at in-n-out burger and my food just disappeared. (coincidence? I think not)

My goal is to break my bad eating habits more than weight loss. If I break the bad habits the weight loss will follow. So after one week I have lost 2.5 pounds, I wanted a little more but that's ok. More to follow!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Snow Day

Well the weather man was right this time, we officially are in the middle of a blizzard, predictions of 10-15 inches. Went to work and it was still ok, but by lunch we called our afternoon patients and left for home. One hour later I was still making my way to our house, which is only 20 minutes away in good weather. It was very hair raising, white out conditions and very slick roads. But I have made it home and what is on my list for the day????

Afternoon nap ( I love naps)
Make soup
Watch some March Madness

I love snow days once you are home!

Friday, March 13, 2009

So True....

This is from an email I got from my Aunt, enjoy.

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE
(1) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').
(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F-- YOU!
(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

Treven hates #8! :)

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Not able to sleep

It's Sunday night and I can't sleep, perhaps it's because of the nap I took earlier today. I think it's because all I have been doing is thinking and as it gets later the clock is staring me down, 5:50 will come all too soon, and instead of continuing to toss and turn and bother Treven who has to be up earlier than that I'm going to put my thoughts down, perhaps it will let me sleep.

1. Things are moving painfully slow with Treven getting a job with the FAA, we were told to expect this but the longer it goes the more nights it keeps me up, what if this doesn't work out? This is plan B and for the moment there is no plan C.
2. Everyday I dread that it will be the day Treven will get laid off, his job at the airport is so sensitive to the economy, they have done many layoffs over the past month, and there is always talk of more layoffs, pay cuts, less hours, etc. They already have lost their monthly and quarterly bonuses.
3. It keeps me up at night wondering why it felt so right to start my radiology program last Feb, just to find out 8 months later and with hefty student loans, that I hated it, more than hated it, despised it. I don't talk about it much mainly because I am embarrassed, I was so sure this was what I was supposed to do, why would I feel that way just for it not to work out? I could have graduated but what was the point, I wouldn't want to work once I was done in that field. It's hard not to be angry at God for that one.
4. Which leads me to the 20 lbs I have put on since last Feb, I dealt with my hate of the radiology program with food. I felt so backed into a corner that I really thought my only option was to finish the program, which lead me to eat more. Now I feel fat and unattractive and everything in my head tells me that I will fail at losing it, just like I failed at finishing most things in my life
5. I feel like many of my prayers go unanswered, enough said on that one.
It is a time in my life that I feel so uncertain of the next step, I don't trust anything that comes to me, and depending on the day it's something different. I'm tired of being hassled about when we are having a baby, if Treven had a stable job and we had insurance that covered it, we might be open to it, but it's not an option right now so don't ask about it anymore. We will have kids when we are ready, and we won't forget to tell everyone.
I think this is a pretty raw entry, I promise there won't be many of these, but sometimes keeping things bottled up just makes it worse. Everyone has their peaks and valley's, right now it's a valley hopefully things will soon get better.
Good night for now, It's after 11 and I feel like it will take awhile to fall asleep, I hate Mondays.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Happy Birthday

Treven and his very yummy cookies and cream ice cream cake
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TREVEN!!! You are getting old, it's time to trade you in for a younger model! j/k Love you more than anything.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Food Coma

Just got back from the Melting Pot, love that place. Ate so much I feel like I needed to be rolled out to my car like Violet from Willie Wonka and the Chocolate factory. But for those in the Denver area for the next 2 weeks until March 6th, you can eat at the melting pot for $52.80 for two people that includes cheese course, salad, main course, and of course dessert. So worth it when it normally costs $90. Love it, now I need to go sleep it off.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Delicious disaster

Please see Kristy's blog for tonight's post............
www.bradyandkristy.blogspot.com

Friday, February 13, 2009

What am I thinking????

So my friend wants to do a sprint triathlon, also called a "mini" triathlon. Well she really wants me to do it and she caught me in a delirious moment and now I am committed to this ordeal. It consists of 1/2 mile swim, 12 mile bike ride, and 3 mile run. I thought Treven would talk me out of it but he thinks it's the best idea. So next payday I'm going to register and I'll keep some tabs on this to keep me accounted for.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Day at the zoo

Treven had today off, his first Saturday in a very long time, and the weather was nice so we decided to go to the Denver zoo. We had a great time!





A very ugly ant eater

Lions, and tigers, and bears.... Oh just a tiger



Treven posing with the gorilla


The gorilla thinking




I hope he doesn't go #2

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

January

I hate January, it is my least favorite month. There are several reasons why I despise January, first the holidays are over. I like the months of Oct-Dec because there are things to look forward to, I love Halloween, thanksgiving, Christmas, and new years. But on Jan. 1st my love for January is over. It is cold and there is nothing to look forward to. Last week the weather played a very mean joke and made it 70 degrees here, yes you read that right, 70 degrees in Denver. But this week winter has come back with a vengeance, yesterday the high was 14 degrees. I hate January because spring and summer are so far away. I am not a winter fan, it is very rare for me to complain about summer heat, I like the heat, but during the winter I complain a lot. Why can't humans just hibernate through January and February, we can move Valentines day to March. Oh summer, why are you so far away?

Sunday, January 4, 2009

New Years

We had a great new year's, I was still in SLC for part of it so I was able to go out to dinner with my family and some friends. Then off to the airport where Treven picked me up in Denver at ten in the evening. We went to a friends house where we played games. Treven was very sweet and surprised me with flowers when I got home.





Treven entertaining the kids

Treven being funny



Kisses for everyone, Derrick and Treven


Janean and I

Give me a kiss



New Years just after midnight